Is it me or him? Big milestone today!

As you may or may not know I have gone and seen/nursed/rocked Deacon to sleep every single day he has been in daycare (with the exception of the day I couldn't get up (literally) from mastitis).  Last week I threw out the idea of seeing if he could fall asleep on his own.  So today we tried it.  He falls asleep without me the majority of the days that he is home with my husband so I thought just maybe he could do it at daycare too? 

Today at lunch he went to sleep without me… After eating lunch he [like always] went right over to his cot & laid down.  Normally they would give him  a few books to read while he waited for me if I hadn't already been waiting for him.  Today they didn't.  Instead they made a "Deacon sandwich", as she put it, in two of his blankets (I think the sheets they use on their cots are too rough so I like to have a blanket under and over him :-) After laying down he was still for a minute and then started getting a little restless like he couldn't get really comfy.  He looked back at the door a few times and at one point I sent my husband a text asking why I was even doing this.  After about a minute of him being a little restless but never getting up or leaving his tummy his teacher sat down next to him and rubbed his back for a few minutes.  She got up, he stayed down and he was passed smooth out. 

Less than 5 minutes from lunch table to snoring.

I called just a few minutes ago to see how he slept and she said that he slept like a rock!  They had to wake him up.  Granted he was a little more tired than usual (the weather is AMAZING today so they have been out a ton) he still fell asleep [almost all] on his own.  He is having snack now and seems like all is normal.

I don't know why I felt compelled to share… I wanted to keep it for my own personal keep sake and who knows, I may help someone?

All in all he did great… I bawled like a baby!  I couldn't believe that my baby didn't need me to fall asleep.  Sometimes I wonder if it's me or him that creates these "needs."  Part of me feel like if it were him there would have been a fight or a tear… something but nope, nada.  I think I am happy it went so smooth?  I wouldn't have allowed him to fuss or CIO.  I feel like when the time is right it is… no reason to push it or possibly in this case delay?

and in case you were wondering I am not trying to wean him but I wouldn't hate cutting back a bit, maybe even napping on my lunch break? (-:

Baby Movements

So I should wait until my week 11 vlog to talk about it however it is too exciting not to share earlier!

Three days ago I accepted the fact that yes indeed I am feeling this baby move!  It started about a week ago and I didn't believe it.  I thought that I was just plain nuts as it's really early. 

Well since I have been feeling the baby move a handful of times each day (about 1-4).  It's mostly just when I am sitting at my desk, reading something or when I am laying in bed at night before I fall asleep, etc.  It is in just about the same spot every time and it is oh so exciting!!! 

I am however a little worried that this is a really wild one! [-;

9 Weeks 2 Days Pregnant

Just for fun.  I think I am 9w2d. 

Biggest frontal change are the side-lines popping up inside hips.



First Baby Appointment… TOMORROW!

I have countdowns for many things on my phone... this one has been on for over a month and finally... 1 DAY!

Tomorrow we have our first appointment for this baby- FINALLY!  At this point in Deacon's pregnancy I had already seen him 2 weeks prior to now, had multiple blood draws completed and knew as much about him as I possibly could at this point.

Right now I don't even know if I am carrying one baby or two.

I. am. nervous.

I. am. excited.

I can't wait!!

Sunday morning I was called by the Doctor's office we are going to tomorrow.  The CNM (Certified Nurse Midwife) that I had had my apt. with had a death in her family and is going to be out of town all week.  Immediately I started to well up, I think the receptionist heard my voice crack because she got me in at the same time with an OBGYN.  Although I really didn't want to see an OB I am okay with it because I am now 99% sure I will get a Sono!  Gotta find the good in everything!  (still trying to find the good in a male OB!)

My Home Birth Midwife suggested this office (specifically the OBGYN we are now seeing) as they are kind to transfer patients.  Trust me, I am not living in fantasy land I want to keep all of my options open and easily accessible! 

So this is where I stand;

• Is the baby ok?!? 
• I just want to know that this is a happy, healthy, properly growing baby
• Are we having Multiples?
• I have had countless dreams that we are
• Was I right or was OvaCue right? 
• There is a week's difference in the dates

I really just want to see and/or hear this baby.  When I feel good (unlike now- PLEASE stomach… go back home!!) I wonder if I am making all of my symptoms up and if I just forgot I had my period, etc.  I know that makes me sound like a crazy person and I KNOW I am pregnant I guess I just want that reassurance. 

A very good, local, friend of mine found out early last week that she lost her baby.  She was a week behind me.  She didn't want to get into details until after my appointment but I am now heartbroken for her and fearful of my appointment (this is where the scared factor comes into play). 

I will upload my vlog tonight and of course share all about the appointment in next week's vlog but in the meantime I just wanted to share how I was feeling- sorry for any scatterbrain-ness

Hope you all are doing well! 

Happy St. Patty's Day!

I must confess today totally snuck up on me!  So in my desperation to find a GREEN shirt I dug through my consignment pile, untagged this shirt and threw it on him… can you believe that it is 6-9 MONTHS!?!  Yes, he is almost two!  Gotta love The Children's Place polo sizing!

I Would NEVER...

While I was pregnant with Deacon my "I will NEVER" list was oh so long! 

My Mom, Deacon and I were at Ikea this last Saturday and I had to laugh… did you guys have these cute little fantasy thoughts before you had kids?

I have been meaning to make a vlog on this for quite some time as my list was quite long and now quite hilarious! 

This day alone I broke a few on my [first] pregnancy parenting standards… I am sure if I saw this set up while shopping it would have been on my list.  However I see it as quite clever… here is why:

• Only my Mom or I needed to push him (the other was hands free) v. us both pushing something
• He was in the reclining position that he sleeps best in
• To get him here we had, had a successful transfer from the car to the stroller in the parking lot- could I ask for more?!?

He woke up after a little shopping and immediately asked for "night night" here is where I broke a few of my major "I would NEVER" rules

• I nursed him in public (granted he was in the Ergo and he was covered- no one would know unless they too have done it)
• I nursed my walking, talking, mouth full of teeth [almost] 22 months old toddler (GASP!)

So I wanted to share… My list is LONG!  When I get a chance I will do a video on it all as it is quite funny now! 

Like I have said before- be flexible!  Man it makes parenting easier!



Veggie Garden Update

Since I still cannot even think about menu planning I thought it would be fun to share our little lettuce sprouts.  The tomatoes have yet to reach the surface and we have about 4 beans that have sprouted thus far. 

How sweet are these little guys?  A breath of fresh air, come on Spring! 



Deacons 2nd Birthday Party

It's official the theme will be AIRPLANES!

I wanted to wait as long as possible so he could pick his own party theme and he has decided- it is his obsession (literally I get to sleep with little metal airplanes nightly :-)

My husband and I confirmed the theme yesterday and the ideas have been racing flying through my head! (=

If you followed me last year you know that I showed you everything I did as far as Deacon's jungle birthday party went.  I also showed some final pictures in this video.  (I just watched this and goodness it was a fun party!  I can not believe it's time to plan another!)

Shall I share again?  Let me know if you're interested!

I lied...

I was so gung ho about meal planning a week well, two weeks ago and now Nope… NOT AT ALL… isn't going to happen!  The idea of eating 99% of food makes me sick!  I am really struggling with the morning sickness.  My stomach moved into my throat and doesn't know it's way back home!  With Deacon is was so much different… however with this pregnancy it is ALL the time.  I get no breaks, whatsoever!

I hate to complain but it's tough!  In a weird way it's nice and reassuring but in another it's just like come on…  PLEASE give me a break! 

Needless to say I won't be posting my menu plans (the words make me gag) for a while… I promise as soon as I start back up with it I will resume sharing.  In the meantime I will remain nauseous X-;

On that note… do you have any special home remedies to cure this unpleasant side effect of pregnancy?

Thank you guys!